I'm going to say this to anyone who happens to give this journal a passing glance: don't read this.  It will doubtlessly come off as horribly whiney and annoying.  the only reason i'm writing this here is because i know no one will ever read it.

soo... there's this girl who's been in my art class for the past 2 years, who i alway thought was drop-dead gorgeous.  literally, she seemed to be everything i find attractive, both physically and personality-wise. And i would have asked her out, except for the fact that she had a boyfriend.  Now, i know all's fair in love and war, but i've never really been comfortable with the idea of stealing another man's woman (pardon the objectifying phrasing). It alway seemed so... dastardly. So, i let it go, resigned to the fact that I'd probably never get my chance with her, considering the fact that's she's a senior and I am a lowly junior.  

now imagine my joyful surprise (and subsequent soul-crushing heartbreak) when i casually check facebook and discover via my news feed that's she's now single, only to realize that, not only is she going to college next year, she's going to college in washington state. as in, the washington state that's on the other side of the country. as in, a place i'm unlikely to visit any time soon.  sigh...

so here i am, pouring my pathetic heart out into an online journal i pray no one will ever read.  i disgust myself.